She's got that killers grin on

Or maybe I'm just to jaded now...

Attempting to upload the photo's for the sixth time. Hopefully they will load, because it turns all sketchy when there's video on it.
... It didn't work. Again.
Now I have to delete the video on it, which I need for my vocals portfolio.
I guess I'll just act it all out. Again.
Perhaps my parental will buy me a real video camera now. That would be grand.

Went to Myu's today. After talking with her, I think I know what I need to do about the beef. Right now, every time I see Lor I feel really awkward and cold towards her. I don't feel as though I know her. Not that I show my depression, I have a mask of steel! What really gets to me though, is that she feels really cold and it's her cold that makes me cold. It's like standing under a heated lamp, and knowing that if I touch the metal fence next to me my finger tips will burn from the freeze. Then I touch it anyways.

(OMG I spider just like decended in front of my face and onto my key board. Had to run downstairs and get the vaccum after squeeling while trapping the bugger under a cup. Creeps.)

Anyways, what I'm getting at is that I will try and pretend. I don't know if I can follow through right away with that decision, but I will try and pretend that nothing happend. It will be like before where I'll just tune out whenever the other person involved is mentioned. Start thinking about Stephen Christian and other such happy thoughts. I could never leave. I don't have anything to loose but time anyways.

xxx