We will try until the bitter end

Maybe I'm the one to blame here...

I went to a new restraunt called the Olive Press for dinner tonight with the Prolas Family. Once again, the brothers didn't show up. Jason because he now resides in Waterloo, Alex because he wanted to jam. Lauren and I doodled, but we hardly talked. When we did it was about things like school. Though that is partly the noisy restraunts fault.

I miss hanging out with Lauren and being totally phsyched for it, knowing that when we got together we would come up with some new world. I miss how innocent we used to be. I hate how we know both of us have totally different lifestyles. It's heartbreaking when we get together and realize that. I care so much about her, and I don't want us to completely fall apart. I'm sure she feels the same.

These thoughts/emotions are only dug up once in a while. We always enjoy eachothers company, but sometimes it just seems... Stale. It's offbeat when this occurs. Next time we chill together, I think I'll bring up something more indepth. Like time, or the importance of our existance. I ponder over those topics endlessly.

xxx