Sunday, December 14, 2008

Sympathy's better than having to tell you the truth

all you are to them is now a lost cause...
I had a dream last night that was rather vivid. I was in this house that, now that I think about it, somewhat resembled my old neighbors house but it was much more open and larger. It had wooden floors, and the walls were painted an ivory colour. I walked in through the front door, and it was a dry blue grey outside like the effects they have in music videos. The rooms were empty, though I really only saw two. There was the front entrance which led into a large room that was divided into three, there were stairs leading up on the left and then when you walked forwards there was the kitchen on the right with another staircase in the center that led upstairs. The back doors were French, and open with a breeze blowing transparent curtains.
There was this little girl, I'll name her Cadence for now, and she was dead. A ghost, but solid. She was pretty, pale skin with light freckles, long dark hair and beautiful doe like eyes of hazel with thick lashes. She wore a white dress, as did I. I always wear simple white summer dresses in my dreams for some reason. She was angry, and sad. She walked towards the back door, and where she stepped rotten rose petals appeared. When she turned back around, I was in her life. She had a family, Mother, Father, and two siblings. She was the youngest. There was a man that was trying to be with her mother, but she was in a happy marriage. He kept barging in however, and even came in through the back door and sat at the breakfast table when the parents were busy. During this time, everything was bright. There was furniture around and the girl was happy, though skeptical, curious, and rather frightend of the man.
As a note, the man kept turning into a pretty woman. It kept changing between a man wanting to get with the wife to a woman trying to steal the husband. In the end it was the man after the wife, so that is how I shall continue this story.
One day the man has stepped on the childrens toys, and then had a bit of a spaz and told the children things that children shouldn't hear. I'm not sure what it was, I just know the man stepped on her doll and then tore it's head off and pulled out the stuffing. The father had enough of this man, for the mother was too kind to make him leave, and so the father took over. The next day the family, save for the father, was eating breakfast. The mother was washing dishes when the man came in. The mother went outside, following a trail of rose petals the man had left. She walked over to the garden on the right of the back yard, where her husbands bloody corpse lied under a mountain of rose petals. She fell to her knees and screamed, sobbing and pounding the ground.
The man was sitting at the table, watching from the window. Cadence stood from her chair and went to pick up the petals and crawled around, following the path. The man kept dragging her back, saying the petals were not something for her to play with. The mother came back inside with a grave face, and continued with the dishes.
My dream changed to being at my house, I dyed parts of my hair pink, and I wanted to put blue in so that it wouldn't be so bright but my blue turned out to be blonde. I was all excited because there was supposed to be this party and a guy I liked was going to be there but by the time I came back with the blue dye everyone was there and I still had this towel on my head hiding the brightness of this pale pink. So I excused myself and put the blue in and came down an hour later. It was weird.
The dream changed again and it involved magicks of some kind. I was riding a horse around this trail and I had to pick things up off of the backs of other horses [which were all black by the way] because Lor had been stupid and done bad things.
In the end I was back in the old house with the child, who in the beginning was hostile but since I understood and saw what happend she made me out to be her sister and held my hand.
That's all I really remember. This blog was just a procrastination tactic of mine. :]

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Pokemon are totally dead baby

Pi-KA-chu!

I should use this more often. It would help me sleep better. I think...
Maybe.

Last night was very dead baby. Well the first part wasn't, after school Bree dragged me to the school hockey game. I don't like hockey. Though there was some violence, and that was interesting at least. She got a bit wigged out because there were girls on the other bleachers next to us that had signs about the guy she was there to see. I know all of them, except one, and they're all nice people so I figured it was one of those jokes things with friends but actually one or two of them actually really like the guy. Apparently everybody knows this guy, and the first I've heard of him was when Bree was all "OMG I heart this guy!" and sent me pictures.

I feel kinda left out. Not over this Reid guy, I don't give a flying monkey poop about him. I mean that in the nicest way possible, I really do. What I'm trying to get at is that I feel left out with not liking somebody. It seems all the girls seem to have someone they like. Except for my Nikkibeans, though it's hard to tell with her because she has a larger world then what I am included in. If I had more time I would link arms with her and cling, but I think our relationship would be less fun that way. Still, I have faith [and I don't mean religious] in Nikki that she would tell me of any such happenings.

Anyways, back to yesterday being dead baby. During lunch Cam came to visit me and Becca at the table, as usual, and he asked me out. I thought it was a joke and laughed and I asked him if this was another of his bets.

Quick explanation: Cam and whoever he makes these bets with have bets where Cam asks a girl out and depending on their answer or sometimes even if the date occurs.

He said he was serious and I was still half laughing and I told him no, that he was my friend. I emphasized this point by gesturing to him and saying "friiiieeeend." I still didn't think that he was serious so I mentioned the bets, and he said they had nothing to do with it. He then said he wanted to see my reaction, because he and Heather got back together the night before. I was like "Gee, thanks." But he said he actually was going to ask me out last month but wasn't sure, and then Lor and him dated for like three weeks. Poor Cam, seduced by the big boobs a coniving woman. He's nice as a friend, but I have two reasons not to date him. One, he's my friend. Two, he has a horrible status for ending relationships.

The fact that he asked me out in person was what made it so dead baby. That's never happened before to me, it's always with the online stuff. Naveed, David, and even [ew] Terry all asked me out using the internet.

EEW BOTH TERRY AND ALYSHA WERE AT CHOIR THIS WEEK! And I was forced to HUG Alysha. I wanted to take a looooong shower after touching her, even though all I did is like lean forward and let my shoulder like scrape her and then backed away. The only reason I even succumbed to such things was because I didn't want to make a scene. Then she was all "Ohhh I'm gunna steal Amelia's jacket, it's so cool!" and I just looked at her, said bye to Santi and walked off. I avoided Terry very well though. I made eye contact once, but that was just because he was behind/beside Tori and Andre. I even walked right by him without so much as a glance. Jebus I'm such a bitch, but he has a record for stalking people and he has asked me out and stalked me for a good week. Never again.

Anyways, back to my dead baby night. I picked up Alexx and Becca and we went to East Side Mario's for dinner for our reservations at seven. We met up with Alesha, Turners friend. She's also dead baby, and she works at East Side. So we ordered and everything and shared the stories of the week and Turner says "I have to burp" and does this massive belch and right then our waiter comes up to the table with the salads and is like "Don't worry, I didn't hear anything." A bit later this other waiter comes over and tells Alexx that this guy at the bar wearing a winter hat [those cute knitted ones with the ear flaps] has a huge crush on her. So she was all kinda embaressed and said thanks for the info. She has a boyfriend by the way, so she wasn't interested at all. Later on the other waiter comes by again with a bunch of shots, and says they're from the guy with the hat. So we're all like "thanks!" and he goes away and everyone downed the shots except me because I wasnt sure if they were alcoholic or not, but they ended up being clean.

So then the hat guys friend drags the guy with the hat in his bar stool over to our table and he was like "Hi." So we were like "Hi, whats your name?" And we all introduced ourselves and we all forget the guys name... Anyways so he asks how old we are and Becca, having waited to say this for the whole time pointed to Turner and was like "She's my fourteen year old little sister!" and the guy was like "I should leave now..." but then we were laughing and said we were actually 17, except for Alesha whose 18 and he was like "Seriously, you're underage? Oh man I need to go..." and then Becca was like "Alesha is of age!" and we all laughed he was like oh dear and then we asked how old he was and he said "How old do you think I am?" and Turner guessed 22 and he said "I'm turning 30 in a few months." We didn't believe him because he looked like he was 19 so he was like "Check my liscence" and he told the truth. So then he did leave and we laughed because he ended up paying for alchoholic shots.

We went to see Twilight after with Turners parents. The movie was okay, it wasn't great. Anyone who didn't read the books would be majorly confused, and the camera angles, dialogue, and lighting were very suckish. Scenes that were in the trailers were not in the movie, and the good songs on the sound track were only in the credits. The only reason this movie is so popular is because so many people read the books. The only reason so many people read the books are because there were all us supernatural loving children and they picked up the book going "yes, vamps!" and then realized it was more of a teen romance thing and passed it along to those who like those things. People who dissed me for liking vampires and werewolves are now mega fans. Bitches.